Why Canada, Why Raccoons?

Today I know that it was my purpose! Here I was able to learn who I really am and which tasks I have to fulfil in my life. Most humans only think about their life when they are ill or become old. They displace their desires and dreams, live a life that is no fun to them or does not fulfil them. Everyone uses the same excuse: "...I have to work to feed my family..." No one takes the time to believe in their dreams or even just to think of them. My dreams fulfilled themselves and have brought me exactly where I am today!

Canada, Nature and Animals have always been my childhood dream, back then no one believed, that one day I will live this dream.

A life in nature is often a big challenge for humans who enjoy the social live like I did. At the beginning I was scared of walking into the forest alone, a feeling of being lost overcomes you! The only thing you can meet there are wild animals. You know them from TV shows and books; mostly they have been portrait so negatively that a kind of fear accompanies you!

I miss the companionship of other people. Here in the shrubs you are a "nobody". You do not even need a name, everything you once were and had is worthless here. One understands only much later that you only played a little role in society. You cleaned your windows, maintained your garden however it usually was not for yourself but for your neighbours! In isolation you learn fast, you do everything for yourself and then only if you enjoy it. Naturally I still do most things I used to in society, if visitors come I still clean like a good German housewife. This is getting less though as I do not have as much time now!

My animals taught me that many things in life are not that important anymore. be if we also still so Even if we have loads of work my foundlings encourage me to play with them; it is sooo nice to be a child again from time to time! In society one often does not have the courage to be happy like a child, one is a grown up after all! Unfortunately most do not even dare show their feelings, what will the others think! Animals always show their feelings. That was my most valuable lesson, to be myself! It is very difficult to really be yourself. However I think still have much time to learn it. I realized it and that is a good start! Each human has his weaknesses and that is what makes him so special and sympathetic!

My life was simply perfect, I was happy and loved everything which was around me.

Until one day I got raccoon babies which were very ill. In this time, I knew I was alone, some died in my arms. Nevertheless after a long search I found some people who could give me advice. But my grief had become very big and I had the fear that I could not cope with this immense responsibility.

To see and feel this suffering of the animals blocked me so much that I cried very often! I started to hate humans. This however was a very big mistake, which I only recently understood. Many tears were poured, nobody could understand our suffering!



Each animal shelter, in the periphery of 300 kilometres knew that we take in raccoons and other wild animals, and so they became more and more. Many weeks I had do go without sleep. It got so far that I felt responsible for all humans that abused animals. What did my raccoons think when they were looking at me, they had nearly observed everything, how a human killed its mother brutally? I was ashamed before the animal world to be a human! Ever more calls came, we were constantly overcrowded, but I knew, if I reject, the small ones have to die.

Then the day came on which I could not eat anymore meat. What could my animal children have thought, if they saw me eating a dead animal?

My animals taught me many lessons, which I could never have learned from humans. My life changed suddenly at one point, at which I could no longer continue and did not know what to do.

A small raccoon let me understand that I possessed a wonderful healing ability. My faith was very big and I knew that I got much help of the angels and God, but that I can heal??? Little lay suddenly motionless in his basket! My fear and my helplessness flooded my heart and my whole body, please not again!

This sadness, this heart pain to lose him, let me fall very deep, but an angel must have caught me. I felt a power and a will in me, a feeling, which I had never felt before!

My prayers were always very intensive, I had nobody except God. In these hours of need the dear God must have heard me!

I loved this small raccoon so much that I would have done everything to save him. In the whole house white candles, scented sticks were burning, and angel music accompanied my prayers. Surly many people can understand me, my animals were and are my family

Today I know that I had fallen into a very deep holy Meditation. My praying must have made the whole universe attentive to me, because after 4 hours my little one lifted his head and wanted his bottle. This was my first experience with healing energy. Since then I could help a lot of animals with this praying or asking for help. Also I believe to be able to say with certainty that I worked unconsciously with light and love, although I could not do that yet, or knew that it existed! A loving mother develops also an over natural force if she wants to save her child!

This night changed everything in my life. Little got well from one second to the other one. First we could not believe it, but it was true! From this day on I knew that my prayers are heard. Each time an animal was ill I prayed as intensively as in this first night, and it worked real wonders! My faith was so big and honest that I would use this healing procedure every time an animal became ill or laid dying. My husband believed in me and suggested to find an experienced spiritual human.

Everything was different since this night.



The raccoon children that died in my arms visited me in my dreams. They played and talked to me. The spookiest thing about it all was that I was in a kind of half-sleep; I could see my animals and at the same time talk to my husband. My husband often thought that I had gone mad.

I read very much about dreams, unfortunately there was nothing that personally responded to me. One night one of my dead raccoons cam again, it played so violently with me that he bit my leg. It was so painful that I woke up, and immediately I turned on the light, which also woke up my husband. I told him about my dream, pushed the cover to one side and saw the bite on my skin. My husband and I could not understand it only was a dream?

I looked desperately for answer on the internet, I sometimes was scared by myself, am I crazy?

What am I actually looking for?

I discovered a beautiful Hp of a medium. But what should I ask her, if I don't know myself what I want! I decided to inquire simply about a dream. Pat is a marvellous woman, since her birth she has been open to spiritual things and a healer. We agreed on a telephone appointment!

What she said about me was like a shock to me. She simply knew everything about me. She impressed me very much. I found out that in my past life I was a big wise healer and would also be one in this life, I could simply not believe it, I should be a healer!!

Everything she told me I took very much to heart and thought about myself very much! In a Meditation I suddenly remembered events which had happened many years ago.



On a beautiful warm summer day I watched an indescribably beautiful sunset, I was very happy about my life and also somewhat proud that all my foundlings are healthy. It was so quiet, not even a bird was to be heard. Suddenly I heard music, I thought my man had put on a CD, but he was not even in the house. I felt this melody or rather singing of angel in my whole body, a feeling of happiness overcame me and I cried for joy! If I meditate today I still hear this divine singing. For me and my beliefs it was certain that this were angels. We live alone and far and wide there was no other person on this evening.

I began to write down all my indications or events which were not normal for humans! So much came to mind, experiences which no one will believe, which I would still like to tell in other stories! I wanted to simply know everything about humans, who possess healing abilities. I read many books and articles on the Internet. However I believed that I possessed this gift but did not dare talk about it. Everybody already considered me to be crazy because I reared raccoons, and then to be a healer as well, ohh God!!

After a few months Pat advised me to do a Karma-dissolving and an induction to extend my healing abilities. I worked very much on myself- daily meditation and chakra-cleansing was on the agenda. Never in my life was I so happy, I radiated with luck and love. My dreams were like a PC, everywhere were symbols and indications which I did not understand.

Everything changed, I started to love and understand humans. My fear that one of my animals will become ill was like it had been erased and I felt save and protected and that is how it was!!

Everything I touched i succeeded in, I was often so happy that I began to love myself from time to time and that was genuinely very hard. In my childhood my parents and the priests told me that self-praise stinks, so I didn't think highly of myself. I am stupid, I am ugly, I am too fat etc. shaped many years of my young life.

My big luck, my wonderful life only started when I found faith again and that took 34 years!

Now I knew that I had to love myself. And I am still not doing right. My urge to know was however not yet satisfied, I simply wanted to know everything. My search for more spiritual knowledge led me on a beautiful website http://www.puramaryam.de "work with light and love" from Maria. I read every single thing, printed out nearly all instructions and learned how to open my heart-chakra.

Now I knew that all my fighting for animals also had negative effects, since I hated humans, who tormented animals. This was the hardest work for me, to love humans that abused animals. I still cannot love them completely, however I learned that one can convince them with love more than with fight and hate. I can understand many things better now!

Everything I needed in life was to find love. Of course I have loved before, but this love is different, simply beautiful.

I learned all of this from the animal world and nature. Animals were and are my spiritual teachers! Animals unconditionally love, animals do not have wars! Animals show their feelings and love us unconditionally!



You will become the generator of love.
Love is Live!
God is Love!
Love heals!

Each Person can change their live into luck and love, he must only actually believe in himself his dreams! My story is one among many others. It should encourage all humans to believe in themselves again. To pray or ask again. Because one who does not ask for help cannot be helped.

My life is not yet over at 50, it has only just begun. It is never too late to find love.

Start to love all animal, to love all humans, to love our planet. Start to love yourself, every one of us is special, everyone is a wonderful healer!

Beliefs shift mountains

It is not enough to know, one has to use it!
It is not enough to want to do it, one has to do it!

Brigitte Boehmer

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